Happy. Second pregnancy, happy times. Building hopes and dreams of baby. Did I drink too much coffee at the time? I think I remember picking up a pot-plant. I started to bleed after that. Maybe the pot plant was too heavy. I’m so sorry that I picked up that Pot Plant as what happened was I started to bleed, I couldn’t stop it. I was getting ready for a local market. I was trying to look for a reason that this happened. Its’s ok to cry.
I rang the hospital and they said I was probably having a miscarriage. I remember a great pain in my uterus, my cervix was opening to let the sac fall out. The body will discard what it does not need. It’s Darwin’s Law. I went to the toilet and my baby fell out or the sac of tissue that was the start of something new. I was very distressed and this happenned at the same time that my much loved grandmother died, Oh dear!
I remember feeling worthless/like a piece of rubbish/ I was very hard on myself. I must be a bad mother. My loss engulfed me. Anger and negativity. The hormones of a lost pregnancy and the rebalancing of my hormones. Very tired. Depression.
I vented my grief/anger at my husband who was going through his own grief about the situation. Where to go to debrief about miscarriage. I did talk about it some people dearest to me that did not believe me. Which hurt allot!
I wanted to scream at the world but it fell on deaf ears. I did have some people to talk to who listened. If this happens to you. Take care of yourself. Don’t be too hard on yourself! Find an association of women where you can share experiences safely. The grief/emotions are hard to deal with. If you feel you are getting depressed, please talk to someone. Be with someone who supports you and know that you are not alone.
POSSIBILITIES OF WHAT TO DO:
Call SANDS 1300 0 72637
Get information of miscarriage support services from your local hospital
Research for local support groups at your Local council
My first son was born in the usual way. Shane and I captured the whole birth on video. My son was born with both Shane and my mother in attendance with midwife at the hospital. An amazing moment in time where I was listening to a compilation of songs produced by Shane for the birth of his son. I sang this baby out of me, so happy to have this baby although the reality of childbirth at the time involved screaming. I tried to stay calm and I tried really hard not to push, but my body took over in the end and pushed the baby out itself.
My young son did not like his fingernails trimmed right from the start. I remember his nails growing fast I wondered why and thought it was a newborn thing. I was worried baby would scratch himself so I asked my husband to cut his nails, which he did lovingly. I would not do it as I was worried the tremor in my hands would mean I would cut the nails too short. My baby was so uncomfortable and screamed so loud, it made me distressed and cry. I could not watch. Was this a sign of Autism that I mistook for normal babyhood reaction? I had no knowledge or way of knowing.
Also my baby had difficulty attaching to my breast for breast milk and had unstable weight gain/loss for a few weeks there. He eventually understood the sucking motion.
I was a hormonal new mum, everything that I had lived for was happenning, I was finally a mother, everything that I wanted to be in my life. My baby that I had dreamed of was finally lying in my arms. Produced through the sexual union and love of his father and myself. I was totally amazed.
I remember he had a weepy eye, we thought it may be infected but it was not. The weepy eye did not clear up with anti biotics or other. It was found that my son had a blocked tear duct that needed to have a minor operation to unblock. So my son only months old was taken to the hospital when he was months old to have this minor irritation cleared up and thankfully it was all ok.
Hello again! I have been trying to think about: “what can my son do with this extroadinary gift he has?
I thought “Well, you certainly get the Autism melt down cry going so can we train your voice into it sounding actually pleasant?” The Autism cry is shrill and kind of like the effect of a mosquito buzzing around your ears when you are really tired and trying to sleep. Raising your panic/stress levels. Singing Lessons only lasted 3 times but Brian Gilbertson, Opera singer taught DS1 how to feel the sound of his own voice by laying on the wooden floor and humming which is a self soothing technique to remember.
We started learning Piano together so DS1 would strengthen/use his hands. When we play I hoped DS1 could feel the vibration of the piano strings resounding in the Piano.
I thought “Well, if you must do repetitive actions as a means of self soothing well then lets start Martial Arts, Karate Jitzu. Lets practice your Kata’s every day, lets do it together. This worked for 7 months and then DS1 is on a break from Karate. I am hoping that DS1 and DS2 will start back at Karate.
I’m so happy, I went to SERU, the Special Education Resource Unit. I was shown how to put limits of time on the IPAD. I’ve put parental time controls on iPads and computer and my DS1 knows that he must do chores to earn rewards so he just mowed my Lawn which is excellent for his upper body strength, sense of self satisfaction, also strengthening his hands. Way to go DS1. All good for executive functioning. Mowing the lawn is good, relaxing, chop wood, get on the rowing machine, repetitive movements using energy and build strength.
Hard work trying to get pregnant. Hard work after they are born. My second child is born. I am delighted, I know a bit more about babies. Right from the very start of my son’s life he cryed and cryed signalling some sort of distress. My goodness sometimes he was like a little red beetroot.
His skin was so itchy, he scratched all the time. He scratched his face ripping his skin got infected with a bacteria. Antibiotics were needed from the Dr to control this. Tired parents. Afraid that baby would scratch himself so severely. My grandmother used to bind my hands when I had chicken Pox so I would not scratch. In desperation, I bandaged his hands , and lovingly put mittens on his hands preventing scratch. It was not until another mother said, that it looked like Eczema I was prompted to action. Off to the Dr.
Called the hospital everyday to try to get an appointment to see the specialist. Skin prick tests and more tests and I got creams and lotions. Stopped drinking cow’s milk so it would not come through my milk, started to drink Soy milk. The Dr said that by bandaging him for 20 minutes a day in wet cloth so the moisture would absorb in the skin would be a good method. I wet bandage mummified my baby 20- minutes a day.
My second child was born and did not grow hair for the whole of the first year. What happened instead the hard scabs would grow on his head. His father and I peeled off in the bath every day. It was visibly distressing to look at. I had never seen it before and didn’t know this sort of reaction. With a bit of research I understood it was the bodies protective mechanisms trying to cope with this skin condition. Wary of Cortizone prescribed by the Dr. Parents at the end of our tether. We didn’t know what to do. We asked the Dr and applied the prescription. None of the natural remedies seemed to control the discomfort of the itchy eczema skin fast enough.
Gradually over the years the itchy skin has got less. He was waking up between 3-5 times a night with angry dry skin. My friend, who owned a skin care company suggested that I use Avocado oil and Macadamia oil which has the Omega 3 fatty Acid in it that seems to be what my sons skin needs because he has been sleeping. It’s fantastic.
I first used straight cold pressed extra virgin Avocado oil bought from the Grocery store which I love. It does have a tendency to sit on the skin and take a while to absorb so it can get on your clothes and linen, which means it stains. Working it into a lotion may be preferable for some.
Annual assessment wit Occupational Therapist. Son would not take his shoes off when asked to do some standing/balancing tasks! He said he did not feel comfortable to do it so …. He was not pushed to do so and that means???… He was trying to manipulate me (his mother) to buying him an x-box . I won’t buy an X-box. I sold the last one as I thought my son was getting too anxious using it.
I thought the X-box and computer raise his anxiety level and he is acting out content seen on the X-box. The $400-$600 X-box is not worth it! I remember from times past having to ask him over and over again to turn the computer or x-box off! “Just one more minute!” he would say. There is only so many times you want to say that to your son.